I don't know what your personal demons are.
I have no idea if yours are similar to mine, similar to other women...
But there is probably a list of things in your head, in your heart of:
'Things I Wish I could do But I Cannot'
There seems a limitless essay in my head about how destructive negativity is
And this morning i had a quiet revelation and gentle 'Get Me' about how far i have come in Getting The Life I Want.
Nobody handed me my business and said "Lucky Lady, enjoy" i have been building this for years, carefully and gradually, in-between other areas of my life.
I never EVER thought i would understanding BookKeeping and Currency Exchange Rates.
But it seems that i now have a good general grasp of it. And i can use that skill.
I never EVER thought i could be into photography. My lack of photographic skills was a family joke for years. But the age of digital came... and i found my passion, worked on my photoshopping skills. I began to understand the importance of light, the quality of different light...
I can probably take quite a good photo now.
I never thought i'd have the confidence...
: to run! i told myself "i will not EVER run. It is impossible for me" But i do. I am.
: to lose weight! i told myself "It's no fun. I cannot be bothered" But i like myself slimmer, so much more.
: to get a dog! i told myself "i haven't got time, they're just more responsibility" how i arrogant am i? This boy gives sooo much more than he takes.
And still my head is full of all the things i haven't done yet... things i need to negotiate, over time. To find the time to do. To find the money to do them... 'tick tock tick tock' little ambitions sitting, waiting, impatiently. And i'm not 'not' doing them because i am full of doubt and negativity, i am just waiting, saving, putting the greater plan into action. the wider picture... the longer term goals...
What are the things you really want IN your life?
What are the things you really WANT out of your life?
Where's that list of "Ten things i want to Try"?
Because the list you keep in your head - all those 'demons'
Those nagging self-doubts and years of built up negativity...
they are just that: inside your head. Not neccessarily 'put' there by you, but they are kept there by you.
If you have a list of things you really, really, really want to try
If there is a job, a hobby, a LIFE! you really want to have,
Then you probably can have it.
It won't be easy (i am always shattered!)
But once you've got it, you might wonder why you didn't get it sooner.?